Just some rumblings...
I got up late for work again today. And my mum was screaming at me saying how irresponsible I am, that no wonder I did not get my promotion, blah blah blah.
The reason why I got up late was because for consecutive nights, I have been working till 3, 4 am doing Astros promotional video. I realise that I am only truely creating value after "work". It's tough to lead a double life.
I think I am seriously doing a bad job as an engineer, but I "had to" continue for the job security, for the money, for stability, blah blah blah.
I prefer my life at nights, "after work", that time is the time I am truely "working" and I do not feel tired or mind putting in extra hours for my "night job".
When can I live a "normal life"? I am getting tired. In 1 life, I am seen as a role model, and in my other life, I am just a walking zombie. In 1 life, I cannot complain and have to be strong, and in my other life, no one would even hear my complains. Give me more strength to carry on...
Ok. I am fine now. Just need to let off some steam. We create our own destiny.